'Do you ever just get scared of losing people you used to know? Because they know everything you used to be. The good and the bad. I've changed. I know I have and sometimes I worry about what I am now. Who am I? So when I look into their eyes I know I've fallen short of what they know and have come to expect from me. Just like they have, they've changed too and it's obvious. It makes me wonder whether or not change is so obvious on me. Like as obvious as when you get a drastically new haircut or change your style of clothes. Sometimes I think these friends who knew me when I changed every week deserve to know the me that I am now. The one that sort of knows what I'm doing and sort of knows what I want with my life. We deserve to know each other when we at least appear to have our lives together. But sometimes I worry that who I am and who they are just don't fit together anymore. That those versions of ourselves were the ones who really knew each other. That our past selves barely exist in us anymore. Sometimes I wonder if it would be kinder to let them go. There's some part of me that wants to hold on to them because they knew who I used to be and I am afraid of not being that person anymore. You know? Do you ever think about that?'
'No, I really haven't.'
'Yeah, neither have I.'
